I have not blogged in so long and looking back at my old posts, how embarrassing! I have had a lot on my mind lately. 2017  is going to be a great year. Many changes are happening and have happened. I got married on December 3, 2016 to a handsome Argentine man. I do not think people really warn you about how hard marriage is. Just because I put those smiley emojis on facebook does not always mean life is just peachy. This has been one of the hardest months for me and yet one of the best that I finally get to be with my best friend forever and ever and ever. We had to get his Visa and he flew into the country three weeks before the wedding. I got rid of the photographer and my mom took our engagement pictures with my phone, because I forgot to charge my camera. Doy! I did not order enough invites (sorry people who never got invited), my hair went flat, I did not lose those extra 10 pounds that came with stress, it was freezing and I got new underwear that still angers me every single time I put them on. Life is not what you would expect. But my reception was beautiful, the cake was soo good and I had amazing family and friends there to support me and my parents are amazing.

My name is Jessica I am far from perfect, have a short temper, and am trying to pretend to act my age and be an adult and cope with life changes. My husband is a crazy Argentine and I love him, and feel like I have a 10 year old, and just have to follow a trail in the house of where he has been to find him.  

Wedding Day

Happy New Year!

When your cute nephew pees all over his pants and your pants but still is the cutest thing

Fail again! When you want to be Martha Stewart but fail every time. Bath Bombs gone bad

Loves of my Life 

The handsome mister! 

                I feel like I always write when something big happens in my life, my wedding was a big event, but that is not what I am going to talk much about in this post, I am going to write on death. It has always been something I have tried to make sense in my mind. Lately there has been a lot of deaths around me. (Do you think it is because of Trump?! haha just joking. I really think Donald will do ok.) But on a serious note, it is something so interesting to me. I have a friend who just lost her father unexpectedly. She said something along the lines of she did not want to live. I sent her a message and told her that “I am so sorry for your loss (Cry emoji) Let me know if there is anything I can do for you (Heart Emoji) She then replied back to me “I am so wanting to die myself” I probably should have thought a little longer before replying but if you know me you know I will usually give you my blunt opinion. I told her something along the lines of “Death is a horrible thing! It sucks when someone you love dies and it is not going to suck less as time goes on, you will always miss him and you won’t stop. But they are one of your angels now and get to be with and watch over you. You are a very loved and strong person. Nothing right now will help the pain go away. But you still have those that need you in their life.”  I guess the reason I bring this up is lately I have had a friend I grew up with take his own life, I knew a lady that just died after being sick for years due to unhealthy choices, I knew a lady that was in her mid 50’s that went in for surgery and was recovering when she suddenly passed, and there is also a lady in her mid 30’s, a single mom, 2 early teens, that just had very bad headaches and found out she had a tumor, then more tumors and they say she won’t live much longer. It is so interesting to me that all those people come from different backgrounds, different races, different culture but every single person has that hurt and feels that pain of losing a loved one. I have shed more than one tear for each one of those people’s hurting families as it takes me back and makes me feel the pain of when I too have lost loved ones close to me.

                I am LDS I do believe In God and I know I will get to see my family and friends again. I feel that is one advantage I do have over people that do not believe in that. I was talking to my friend who is not LDS about how angry I get at people that kill themselves, I just personally do not feel there is ever an excuse to do that to your family. EVER! But I do not know what they are going through and I also understand sometimes they are ill in their head but back to my story. She  was talking to me about how I cannot say that I am angry at them because I have my religion to fall back on. She was saying that “Jess, you believe in God and you know you will see your family again and live with them again after we die.Not everyone has that religion to believe in like you do. They think that when they die, they are done, their life is over, they don’t have to worry about anything ever again.” That just shocked me a little, because I don’t feel I am very vocal about my religion, if you ask, I will tell you but I am not going to preach to you. It just surprised me she knew that about me and answered that way. It also made me feel a little bit of comfort in my heart because it is true. I know these people can see their loved ones again. It still hurts, but I think it would tear you apart not knowing you would see your loved ones again.

These deaths have been hard, not that any deaths are easy. But, lately I have cried a lot not just for these deaths, but like I said earlier, a lot of changes have been happening for me. And I still have angry chewing out sessions with God a lot, poor guy. But I also know he has a plan and reason for everything and I don’t get to understand.

I guess my point that I did not get across very well is, life is hard. Being an adult is hard, having someone leave us is probably one of the hardest things. But every single person experiences it at one point in their life. Every human is going through hard times, and no matter how many emojis or smiles you put on facebook. You do not know what people are going through. You do not know their lives. Like I said LIFE IS HARD! Things will never go as planned and sadly disappointment does happen, a lot. Try to make the best of it and stay strong. God does love you and life goes by quicker than you realize. Don’t forget to reach out to your loved ones. And keep plugging on, the snow will melt one day, the bills will get smaller, I will survive my first year of marriage :) 


Happy New Year 2017! 

July 24th in Utah

So I went to Utah again. I love visiting some of my favorite people in Utah and I go crazy if I do not leave town almost every month. I went this year for the 24th of July. My friend's that live there sleep out on the parade route every year and told me I had to come do it with them. Well any excuse to come down  :) 

There are tons of pics on this post but I will tell you about my trip then explain in the captions what is actually going on in the pictures below.

Wednesday- I drove down to Utah after work at little before lunch time, and with all the construction made it there around dinner time. I met up with Krysta at her house, and swapped cars around while Katee saved our spot at the parade route with nothing but her purse and body to guard our spot haha. We met everyone down town SLC and we were hungry so Krysta stayed and me, Katee, and Jasmine went on the tracks and got food. First off me and Katee should not be the ones to go get everyone food. We can never ever decide on anything. It took forever for use to decide where to eat. It was really hot and my feet were already blistered from all the walking. Note to Self: Do not wear flip flops to the parade route.We made it back and ate and ended up playing some really fun games with more people that showed up. We sat next to a Polynesian family which was hilarious. They had so many kids everywhere and I need to marry a Polynesian, they are so beautiful. Anywho, the parade route... I was just in shock of all the families with little kids sleeping on the street. Well we didn't do much sleeping. Steve gave me a ride on his Harley. It was soo fun! I love motorcycle rides. Don't worry mom he made me wear the helmet. :P We finally all layed down around two and I woke up a few times because of how hot it was and no pillow. It was a tad un-comfy. Next year I am taking a matress. Thursday-The parade was really fun, so much better than Idaho's. My favorite part was seeing Uchtdorf. I make fun of people all the time that get excited over seeing someone in the church but I saw him coming and started screaming like a girl at a concert! He was so close it was awesome! Who doesn't love him?! Well after the parade we went  home, showered, and got ready for the day. It was around lunch time so me and Katee went and did some shopping, went and got food, and drove to get tickets for the Bee's game that night. Then we went and ate ice cream with my friends; Laurel, Zach, and Andie. I love them they are such fun people to hang out with and they have such a cute smiley little girl. We went to the Bees game after that and we had pretty good box seats for cheap. We told ourselves we had to get a hot dog cuz we were at a baseball game, even though we were soo full already. Then I saw my favorite; Dippin' Dots! I had to get some. My stomach was ready to explode. We waited in line forever for the biggest hot dogs I have ever seen in my life. The guy in front of us finished his whole beer and I finished all my Dippin Dots and we were still waitng. Probably half an hour no joke. We became quite good friends with the guy in front of us haha. So we payed for the way overpriced hot dog and both of us could not even eat half. Fail. The Bee's won! Wooo! It was hard for us to keep our eyes open from the lack of sleep. I do love baseball though. The firework show was after that and was so AMAZING! I liked it better than the IF one on the 4th it was so cool being so close. They open up the field and you can go sit on it and watch. We decided it has to be a tradition. I for sure am going next year. 

Friday- I was suppose to go to Orem and visit some friends but they ended up having work and school and I didn't want to leave for home way late cuz I had work the next morning. We decided to go to Temple Square. I am getting back into Photography so I brought my camera and my friend's wanted me to take their pictures. It was really really hot and we were still all pretty tired but the pictures ended up looking good. I have missed taking pictures. 

I wanted to go to the top of the Conference Center and Church office building cuz I had not been in them since I was a kid. We got in the elevator at the Conference Center and tried to push the 4 button. The lady in the elevator told us we couldn't go up there without a key. Well the elevator ended up opening at the 4th level and we walked out (a tour was coming down) We started walking around taking pictures and a man came out and asked if he could take our pic for us. So we let him and he went back inside. A few minutes later he came out and asked where our tour guide was. I told him we didn't have one. He was so confused on how we got up here and said well security is going to come up here soon and wants to know why you don't have a tour guide. So I said can we just go stand next to those ppl with a tour guide. We don't want a tour. He said yeah just go stand next to ppl so it looks like you have one. So we did a few minutes, then got bored and went inside to talk to him and went and took our pictures.

Best Part:Visiting with friends/catching up on their lives.

Worst Part: I got a ticket on the way home. 90 Dollars! 

Sorry the pics are all out of order :/

View from the Conference Center

Conference Center

The grounds crew studying flowers haha

Trysta is not the best photographer haha

Just so everyone knows, they got ready and all cute this day. I threw on a t-shirt and was not. Actually they made fun of my outfit which is why it is not fully in any pictures haha!

View from Church Office Building

Still addicted to Fuze!

Construction in Utah of course... right from the border

Rush Hour?

This whole trip was hot and there was not much sleep

We seemed to always end up waiting everywhere

Mexican food...not smart when sleeping on a parade route

Matte Blue! I am in love!

1 Am walking around

Playing games

People act weird w/no sleep

Sleeping

Not really sleeping

Random guy holding bird outside game

Bees

Dippin Dots :)

So long!

AHHH! UCHTDORF!

So working with the missionaries they still had to text me every day and make sure I read a verse.I tried to give them the excuse I was on vacation and they didn't let that slide at all. Krysta was around the second day they texted me and she picked out this verse for me. 

It's crazy how scriptures that you really need at the time seem to come up. While in Utah I had really spiritual and good talks with both Trysta and Kitee about our past mistakes/lessons learned and trials we are going through now, and how they know what I am going through and gave me some good advice. I am so lucky to have them in my life.  They are always there for me. Krysta ended up giving me a B.O.M. and writing some amazing things in it. I didn't read it until I got home. It was really awesome. Thanks ladies!

Eating....again

I want that cool water holder

Firework show!

101 degrees! Oy!

The temple is so pretty!