When life Pulls you down..... sometimes you just need to stand the heck up!

These last few months I have felt a little down. Sometimes in life we can only see the negatives in it. I was just thinking about some of the positives that I just looked past.

 I found out one of my good friends is gay. You would think what is a positive in that? Well I feel I grew closer to my Heavenly Father through this. I prayed like I have never prayed before for him. It is hard watching someone you are close to and care about a friend so much to go through such a trial and realizing that you cannot do anything to help them. It is their choice and they have to make their own decisions. It was so hard it made me sick at night for a week or 2. It still makes me sad to think about him choosing to live this way. I still will always be a friend to him but I do not support gays 100%. I think it is disgusting and wrong and one of the most evil things on earth and I will tell you that every time. I'm grateful I  am hmmm what's the word blunt well whatever it is that I know my values and beliefs and am strong enough to stand up for what I believe in and have never had anyone try to argue my beliefs on it even if they are against it. Back to the positive of it. It made me closer to my Heavenly Father but it also helped me realize how blessed I am that I know how much faith I have and how great my family is and my life is because I know what is right and what is wrong. And all those years of having to go to boring :) church it has helped me become a better person that I am today.  I will go more into this in another post.

I started a new school in town and moved back home with my parents instead of Rexburg or Utah which was a big decision. ISU is completely opposite BYU-I in many ways. They do not care to make anyone friends there and  most of the people that go there smoke and have children and families. Although I had no social life because I would not wake up early to go to Institute. (I'm working on it.....) I really do like it a lot. I loved the social part of BYU-I. I love my old roommates I met there and still talk to all 7 of them almost every week if I can. Some of them are my closest friends and always will be. I do not regret going to Rexburg for my first 2 semesters of school. It was a mix of emotions there. Any who....Although ISU does not have the best spirit, does not pray, or sing hymns in every class. I love it! I really do. I feel like seeing people live the way that is not LDS helps me be a better person. I look at them being older or being high school drop outs trying to go to school with their families living on part time jobs and being single parents and smoking and drinking and doing other things they should not be doing helps me know what I do not want to become. Helps me keep pushing to go through college so I will be able to spend time with my family when I grow up and not have to take night classes or work part time jobs. I can get a degree and help support my husband and get married in the temple and although I know my life will not be perfect it will be better than what these people have chosen their lives to be. Few more positives I get to be home with my parents not only does it save me money on groceries and food, but I get to spend time with my parents. I love them so much they are such amazing people I am glad I have them. :)The last positive that kind of contradicts my negative of no social life, I was able to finish school with straight A's. A 4.0! That is right a four point oh! I have never had one of those before. I am so excited. I started over completely at ISU with no credits transferred. That means I am a 4.0 Student and plan on staying that way. In a way it was a blessing I had no social life. I studied and worked hard for it and can say for once I am proud of myself. WHOOOO!! HAAAAAAAAA!

My Birthday! I turned 20 this year! I am old. :( Remember when 20 was old yeah me too. Cuz it still is. Dang it. My Birthday was not the best this year it was a crazy busy time but the positive of it is that my closest friend's and family remembered and cared and that is the best. Both my grandmothers called and I got to hear my Grandmother sing her last Birthday song to anyone. Best memory ever.  Cheers to the old farts out there! I hear ya'.

My sister left on her mission. She will be gone for 18 months. Dang 2 pregnancies. I miss her more than I thought I ever would. Before her mission we got closer than we ever have been. If you could not tell already me and Bobbi are completely opposites from friends to colors to attitudes to personalities to everything. I love her so much. The positives of this though. She is helping people be able to be with their families forever. Kudos to all missionaries or R.M.s that are so selfless to do that. What better positive than that.

My beautiful grandmother died. Although I posted a lot about this below so I will try not to post to much about it again. We will miss my grandma every day. (I blow her a kiss every night to heaven for her) She was sick her body was tired and she was not happy not being able to do the things she loved everyday. My grandpa loves her more than anything but did not know how he was going to be able to take care of her anymore. The positives. She is now happier being able to smile down at us. She can now paint her beautiful artwork and make dolls and everything else she loves doing without her hands hurting. She do everything she has missed doing for years. I know she misses us too but we all know we will see each other again. I am happy that she got to get away from this world that is turning so evil. She would not like watching all the awful things happening to families these days. And Grandpa has been able to travel which he loves. He just got back from visiting his brother in Logan. He misses grandma but is doing well.

One of my favorite cousin's is moving to Florida. I am very sad. I know they have to do it for work and everything but I will really miss her and her family. Back to the having a great family. Amazing lady right here. Texted me everyday after my sister and grandma left. For me it is always the simple things in life that mean so much. Her simple texts just asking how my day is going. The positive of this. Is we are so lucky to have phones and texting and skype that I can talk to her whenever I need. It will be hard at first not being able to go see her at her house all the time but it will be a great change for her family. I love her and her kids, I miss them a lot. But the best positive she is my family. I am lucky to have her in mine which means she is stuck with me forever. Whether she likes it or not. :P In her words, "neener neener". Love you Michelle thank you for being such a great person and being there for me. I'm going to miss your guts! and your crazy families too.

WHEN LIFE PULLS YOU DOWN.......TIME TO STEP IT UP AND CHANGE IT

I have been taking the sister missionaries around. It is ridiculous they really do waste a lot of gas in my car but I would want someone to be driving my sister around in Canada if she ever needed a ride. So I drive.I was just telling my mom though that I am tired of my car getting sucked dry of gas when they could just walk where they needed to go. Well the next day the sisters and I were at lunch and they asked how the job hunt was going I said not well I only have cleaning on my resume and don't want to have to quit my social life of playing all the time to work somewhere where I can't even run a cash register. They said well we went to this ladies house the other night for dinner and she had a cleaning business and was looking for people to hire. Bam! I got the job cleaning apartments. It is a good job. I clean when I want every day and get paid really well. My boss is Tana and she is really one of the nicest ladies I have ever met. She is so awesome. I really love it. Never would I have had that opportunity if I had not been where I was suppose to be. Also though I love sister Maschek and sister Kokoa. They are such wonderful ladies. I love them.


I guess if you don't want to read all of that rambling bambling above what I want you to get out of this is..... No matter the negatives in life, even the ones you don't have the choice of. You can always find positive, maybe not always at that second but it will come. Life always has downs in it but it always has ups. God loves you and is there for you. Just have a some faith in him people! Blog you All later!!! Time to take the missionaries to Reeds Dairy to get a Huckleberry Shake. Hee Haw!

In honor of a new song I found. Yeah on the playlist. Make Your Own Sunshine!! Listen to the song it is really good. :)